Paper Pregnant

Xmas

Sat, 22 Dec 2012 21:00:30 -0500

The X in Xmas comes from the first letter in the Greek word for Christ. Versions of X for Christ have been used since the 1400s. Its not taking Christ out of Christmas. Its actually been used in so many more ways than just Christmas. It was used for Christianity (Xtianity), obviously not trying to take the Christ out of it…

My big pet peeve during this season is people getting upset about the use of Xmas and “taking Christ out of Christmas.” That is not the case. And, actually, when people use it that way they are usually just being lazy and it has nothing at all to do with religion.

Okay… done ranting.

My social worker is a texter

Fri, 21 Dec 2012 23:24:29 -0500

She texted me this morning saying that our next two interviews, including the individual interviews that last 5+ hours, are going to be the 26th and 27th. Now I just can’t wait for Christmas so I can get closer to finishing the home study and being matched with a birth mother.

When did I become a grown up?

Sun, 16 Dec 2012 00:09:32 -0500

My old boss was let go. It was truly horrible working for him. He was controlling and a micromanager.

Well, they hired a new guy. He’s annoying, full of himself, and talks wayyyy too much. But he is a blessing. And now I am finally able to become the professional I wanted to be. I’m in so much control of our department now. I have so much responsibility and I’m so busy, but I’m really enjoying it right now.

And then, on top of that, we were given 2 weeks of vacation. So I picked up a couple shifts at my old job that I used to love… but so much has changed! Its not the same place anymore and I’m a little sad because I don’t love it as much as I used to. It used to be the only place I felt at home. I really loved being there and working with the people. Now its completely different. It doesn’t feel right. My boss and the chef were let go for trying to get the tyranical director out of the picture. It is really sad to see. Everyone is on edge and someone that I used to workwithis now trying to run everything without enough experience in the position. She is a good choice for the position, but she wasn’t given enough time with the boss before he was let go and she had this whole department dropped on her.

Now I go back to the place that used to be home and I feel so out of place. Plus, it is hard to go from the management position that I’m in to the bottom of the food chain there. I don’t know how tonotbe in charge. I want to set things how I want them and I want to direct people and do the managerial duties instead of the heavy lifting.

They say you can’t go home again. And that’s almost what it feels like. Its like graduating from college and then trying to walk back into your junior high school and feel at home. It just doesn’t work.

Home Study

Tue, 11 Dec 2012 11:05:44 -0500

Our social worker told me that she expects my individual interview to last at least 2 1/2 hours… apparently I look pretty broken just on the paperwork. She has no idea.

And that’s why I think God has prepared me for adoption. My child’s life will never be easy or normal. And I’m ready to handle that.

In the past week...

Tue, 11 Dec 2012 00:39:44 -0500

I found out I was pregnant

Put the adoption on hold

Saw all my doctors and specialists about being pregnant

Got test results showing the baby was doing well

Had a miscarriage

thedailywhat: This is What the United States Looks Like at...

Tue, 11 Dec 2012 00:23:23 -0500

thedailywhat:

This is What the United States Looks Like at Nighttime

Here’s the latest view of the United States at nighttime captured by NASA’s Suomi NPP satelliteand revealed at the American Geophysical Union conference earlier this week on Wednesday, December 5.

A conversation with God

Thu, 01 Nov 2012 22:26:40 -0400

God, why don’t I look like them? Why don’t I talk like them? Why don’t I act like them? I know we are so much alike… but why didn’t I end up like them?

I look at them… their easy lives, their happy families, their beautiful faces… where is mine? My life has been tough! So much hurt, heartbreak, suffering. My family was broken and poor. We struggled to get by. I don’t look stunning… with or without make up. I don’t get admirers, even if I haven’t brushed my hair.

Is it wrong that I don’t find myself drawn to live the same “Christian” lifestyle? I don’t listen to only Christian music… I really like rock n roll. I didn’t marry a godly man… he found you through me. I don’t travel the world in your name, I don’t work for Christian organizations… hell, I barely make it to church most weeks…

I don’t have a glamorous job or get respect for the industry I’m in.

Why didn’t I get lucky?

And that’s when I felt the laughter. “Lucky? They’ll never understand the lessons you’ve learned. They’ll never know what its like to watch their husband’s head come up from the baptism waters. They’ll never get to connect with someone suffering from mental illness. Making friends with those who don’t know My name will never come naturally. They’ll never hold a baby of a different race and KNOW in their heart that it is their child- loving the child and the birth mother.”

Wow. Every moment of my rough life is being put to use for Your glory, God. You’ve given me more happiness and fulfillment than I could have found on my own. And you have prepared me far ahead of time for things yet to come.

Why didn’t others get as lucky as me?

You were my best adventure

Mon, 15 Oct 2012 12:48:13 -0400

You were my best adventure

Adoption Home Study Fundraiser

Sat, 06 Oct 2012 22:48:06 -0400

Adoption Home Study Fundraiser:

Tomorrow is the last day of our t-shirt fundraiser for our homestudy. Please help us out!

Only 4 more days of our fundraiser!! www.adoptionbug.com/ldcleveland

Wed, 03 Oct 2012 20:39:30 -0400

Only 4 more days of our fundraiser!!

www.adoptionbug.com/ldcleveland

Thank you for the Hungry Caterpillar mobile, Kim! (Taken with...

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 20:25:11 -0400

Thank you for the Hungry Caterpillar mobile, Kim! (Taken with Instagram)

Some people...

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 19:53:59 -0400

If you don’t support something, then don’t give money to it.

The end.

We're getting so close!

Fri, 28 Sep 2012 11:09:04 -0400

Please help us raise the remaining balance to begin our home study!

There are a couple options:

My favorite- we are selling t-shirts which support us and adoption organizations at the same time. This fundraiser ends on Oct 7th, so hurry and get your t-shirt!! I love my shirt and I’d wear it every day if I could :)

www.adoptionbug.com/ldcleveland

The other- we are accepting donations. Not something I originally wanted to do because I don’t like just asking for money with nothing in return. But enough people asked for it that we finally created a site for it.

www.giveforward.com/ldcleveland

Please help us bring our baby home!

We got enough requests for it...

Mon, 24 Sep 2012 23:10:32 -0400

So I finally broke down and created an account.

Here is our adoption donation page:

http://www.giveforward.com/ldcleveland

Not starting a trend...

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 20:05:04 -0400

The friend that told me she was adopting…

She texted me this morning. She took a pregnancy test this morning just to be sure. And she’s pregnant. Not paper pregnant. For real pregnant.

I love her. And I’m seriously excited to be adopting. But it hurt a little to hear that.

I’m going to work really hard to raise money over the next few days so we can bring our baby home soon. Please help me!

www.adoptionbug.com/ldcleveland

I just wanted to say thank you so much for adopting. I was adopted as a baby and it means a lot when I see other couples in the process. I'm 19 years old now and I just wanted to voice my opinion and tell you that in my opinion you should be open with your child. I picked up on not looking like my parents when I was younger and they opened up to me right away and told me. I don't know what I would have done if they hadn't and lied.

Fri, 21 Sep 2012 20:00:44 -0400

Thank you so much for sharing this! It really helps me push through the process. I appreciate it!

To my Tumblr Family...

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 23:35:41 -0400

Hi guys!

I really need some help. The adoption agency wants us to move forward with the home study. Yay! But, unfortunately, that means somehow coming up with $1000 in a very short amount of time. To help raise money, we are selling t-shirts that support our adoption process and helps some adoption charities at the same time. If you are willing to give us a little help, please check out our fundraiser site: www.adoptionbug.com/ldcleveland

Here’s a couple examples of the shirts:

Am I starting a trend?

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 20:23:00 -0400

A friend of mine has been trying to get pregnant on and off for almost as long as we have. She is one medications for bipolar disorder and other things like that. She was raised in foster care and has some major emotion issue, but on medication she does great. I’m the same way… medication was the greatest thing to come into my life. Anyway… the medication she is one keeps her from ovulating. And even coming off of it hasn’t really helped.

A couple weeks ago I was hanging out with her husband and he said that they had been talking about adoption a little bit. Well, today she calls me after seeing our picture that I posted on Facebook:

She said that my picture pushed her. She is totally ready. And she wants to adopt! Now she is asking me tons of questions about how to get started.

I’m so happy!! I never knew how incredibly excited I would be to hear someone else wanting go through the paper pregnancy process :)

Step 1 in the adoption process: Complete

Tue, 11 Sep 2012 17:37:06 -0400

We sent in the paperwork today! It was so exciting sending the heavy envelope full of legal forms and questionnaires and certificates to the agency. I forgot to include one form, but I emailed the agency and said I’d get it over to them as soon as possible.

Next step is the home study!

One step closer to bringing our baby home :)

Please help support our adoption!

Sat, 08 Sep 2012 19:54:30 -0400

Please help support our adoption!:

A portion of the t-shirt sales goes toward our adoption expenses. Right now we are trying to save up for our home study and we need all the help we can get!